Where do I begin? Over the past few months, I’ve been working with my doctor to lose weight. I’m 298 lbs, and I have low T because of it. My doctor wants me to lose 20 lbs in six months to see if my Testosterone levels rise. …

What I’m proud of and Dealing with Shame Today, I want to talk about shame. It’s an aspect of life that most of us have felt one way or another. Shame definition goes like this: noun a painful feeling of humiliation or distress caused by the consciousness of wrong or…

Lately, I’ve been fascinated by our nature. The manner in which we live, the choices we make, and how our perception of life develops. If you don’t know, I grew up in a heavy religious background. Where I knew too well that my choices meant Heaven or Hell. As an…

Orbs of Influences On this day, July 23rd, I am logging my first entry via Notes because I left my Notebook and Excalibur in my room. As I walk through the streets of New Haven and Yale’s HP building, I wonder about our autonomy. Recently I’ve been going through all…

I attempted suicide twice in the last year and once before in North Carolina. I thought I was God, the Holy Spirit in the flesh, Lucifer, the messiah, and an angel. Also, a prophet and savior sent by God to change the world. I have a chronic illness called bipolar…

One day our thoughts will rest, our bodies will be food for the crawlers, it will be that day will be free from this life's sorrows and concerns. Today, I am choosing to live again. Tomorrow I am deciding to live. If I had to be honest, zipping down my…

As Michael Korda eludes to one cannot learn to acquire power through a set of rules. This book written back in the ’70s is a timeless gem. I highly recommend purchasing the book here to refine your power game. There are principles to abide by below to start and maintain…

It seems to tackle the most pernicious problem, I have to start with a question. For example, why does a problem seem to be pernicious? I grew up in a hyper-religious household and given a name that revolves around being a something far greater than any human should bare. Barnaby…

Here’s what I have learned from In Sheep’s Clothing: Understanding and Dealing with Manipulative People by Dr. George Simon. 1 & 25 people are sociopaths or 4% of our population. Most sociopaths are within the walls of our workplace than the walls our criminal institutions. Why? Covert-aggressors hide their tracks…